Imma be a bit philosophical this time and pour some of me heart out.
Okay, so here it goes..
So, I'm always complaining about stuff that I don't have. I get jealous of people who've achieved something I haven't. I have a major inferiority complex. I don't like it when people get ahead of me.
That's a confession and perhaps this might be true for quite a lot of other people as well.
What's wrong is, I don't appreciate little precious things which make my life so perfect.
That smile of gratitude you get from people when you help them out.
The way you blush when someone you like looks at you and greets you.
The times of joy and laughter with your friends. When you get appreciated by your teachers over little things.
When you talk to that special friend of yours for long hours about every little detail about your life.
Much more.
Not that this is the first time I've had this thought risen in my mind. I always promise myself that NOW, I'm going to appreciate every single thing. NOW, I would change and strive towards optimism.
However, it's not that easy.
Well, I guess I'm just a bit of a pessimist in this case but I somewhat think A LOT about all the negative things that I encounter.
I ponder over them for long hours and in turn, it messes up my life.
All these intrusive thoughts further trigger off my obsessive compulsive disorder which makes it very hard for me.
Yeah, I have OCD. If I can't remember a name, an incident, a thought, ANYTHING.. I go paranoid and I HAVE to find out what it is else I shall go crazy.
I have been trying to control it for a long time and I'm getting better at it.
Except for this thing in which I HAVE to touch a switch four times, twice by each index finger.
You might find this funny but trust me, you don't wanna know how hard it is.
Getting back, I wish I could just for once stop thinking about all the things which shouldn't have been and instead, fathom all the wonderful things that have happened to me over all these years.
Today my friend, Mahima returned from China. I was by the staircase waiting for her eagerly.
She didn't arrive so I went to her class to check. She wasn't there either.
I turned back and I saw her pacing towards me and I reciprocated as well.
We met midway and gave each other a prodigious hug and glided in circles, still entwined, for a long time. We talked for hours after that. Later, I had watery eyes and you know what? I felt blithe.
Now THAT is what I'm talking about.
I want to cherish these memories. They make me so happy. So blissful.
Thinking over irrelevant stuff just ruins your mind and soul.
It's these little things that make you smile wide that matter the most and what are required the most for a paradisiac and consummate life. :')
Okay, so here it goes..
So, I'm always complaining about stuff that I don't have. I get jealous of people who've achieved something I haven't. I have a major inferiority complex. I don't like it when people get ahead of me.
That's a confession and perhaps this might be true for quite a lot of other people as well.
What's wrong is, I don't appreciate little precious things which make my life so perfect.
That smile of gratitude you get from people when you help them out.
The way you blush when someone you like looks at you and greets you.
The times of joy and laughter with your friends. When you get appreciated by your teachers over little things.
When you talk to that special friend of yours for long hours about every little detail about your life.
Much more.
Not that this is the first time I've had this thought risen in my mind. I always promise myself that NOW, I'm going to appreciate every single thing. NOW, I would change and strive towards optimism.
However, it's not that easy.
Well, I guess I'm just a bit of a pessimist in this case but I somewhat think A LOT about all the negative things that I encounter.
I ponder over them for long hours and in turn, it messes up my life.
All these intrusive thoughts further trigger off my obsessive compulsive disorder which makes it very hard for me.
Yeah, I have OCD. If I can't remember a name, an incident, a thought, ANYTHING.. I go paranoid and I HAVE to find out what it is else I shall go crazy.
I have been trying to control it for a long time and I'm getting better at it.
Except for this thing in which I HAVE to touch a switch four times, twice by each index finger.
You might find this funny but trust me, you don't wanna know how hard it is.
Getting back, I wish I could just for once stop thinking about all the things which shouldn't have been and instead, fathom all the wonderful things that have happened to me over all these years.
Today my friend, Mahima returned from China. I was by the staircase waiting for her eagerly.
She didn't arrive so I went to her class to check. She wasn't there either.
I turned back and I saw her pacing towards me and I reciprocated as well.
We met midway and gave each other a prodigious hug and glided in circles, still entwined, for a long time. We talked for hours after that. Later, I had watery eyes and you know what? I felt blithe.
Now THAT is what I'm talking about.
I want to cherish these memories. They make me so happy. So blissful.
Thinking over irrelevant stuff just ruins your mind and soul.
It's these little things that make you smile wide that matter the most and what are required the most for a paradisiac and consummate life. :')
